.:EnErgiZeR bUnNY pErsOniFied:.

Life is so semi kinda unfair for me right about now.. wala lang.. haay.. not to divulge everything naman in this post diba? kaya lang alam mo yun? normal lang ba na ang dami mong cargo at an early, early age.. i know, i know.. God wouldn’t give me any of this if He knew i couldn’t take it, or if He knew that i wouldn’t be able handle it.. i know i can handle it, i know i’m strong.. its just that it’s so hard to be responsible for everything all at once then take ALL of the pressure that goes with those responsibilities and then be alone all the way.. i know my friends are there to support me, and i thank all of them for that.. they are one of the reasons that i’m still standing right now despite of all the hardships in my life.. but they are not the ones carrying the burden directly.. heck! this isn’t the worst scenario that you could encounter in general, kung compared with other people’s lives, maliit na bagay lang siguro ang problema ko.. i still count my blessings no! ang hirap lang talaga.. parang i have to crawl all the way para lang makalampas sa kung ano pa mang sitwasyon meron ako ngayon.. like nung this week, nasobrahan siguro, i collapsed all of a sudden.. i broke down crying.. something that has never happened to me before.. nagulat ako sa nangyari sa sarili ko.. pero masarap umiyak, parang after nun, hindi man nawala ang problema, magaan naman pakiramdam mo compared to how you first started out.. i almost never usually cry over things.. i don’t not because i don’t want to.. it’s just that i think that i shouldn’t.. maybe you’ll think that i’m stupid or something kaya lang kasi, there are a lot of people looking up to me for strength, and i don’t want them to see their pillar crumbling down.. gets? ang hirap no? well, guess that’s how life goes..

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