.:EnErgiZeR bUnNY pErsOniFied:.

so kamusta naman sa mga taong nakikiupdate? hehe..well i’m happy to say i feel a lot better now.. true! haay.. siguro the break down was long over due. still wondering why though.. hindi ko ma-psychologize ang sarili ko. wag lang sana magkaron ng suicidal tendency.. harhar! joke!! i’m not stupid.. i love life even if it’s not smooth and silky all the way (pantene?).. haay life oh life.. at least i could say i’m back to my old self.. all smiles!

having a hard time getting some shut eye of course, it is so untolerably hot!!! nakakapanghina..it’s been like three days that i haven’t had some decent sleep because of the weather.. thank goodness it rained last night..

doesn’t it feel great when it rains? i don’t know.. i love it when it rains.. there’s always something so unexplainably soothing about it.. apart from the fact that it feels a lot cooler.. ^_^ have you tried walking under the rain? yes i know, if you left your umbrella at home of course you wouldn’t have any choice!? i mean seriously, just walk under the rain just ‘coz you want to.. i’ve tried it.. crazy right? wala lang.. there were just times that it seems as if raindrops are beckoning me to join them.. i would go out with my umbrella or sometimes without it, and just walk.. lalo na pag medyo malakas.. ang saya kaya.. wag lang kumikidlat ng todo! hehe.. maybe you’re thinking "may pagka-weirdo pala si KC".. hehe.. ngayon nyo lang nalaman?

i went to ja rule’s concert pala this week end.. wala lang, it wasn’t as much fun as i expected it would be.. honest!! it just lasted for a couple of hours.. prestige lang kasi foreign artist.. well, masmasaya nung after the concert! hehe..i saw diana zubiri by the way, but that’s not the fun that i was talking about..apart from the feeling close guys calling her by her first name while she was walking along araneta coliseum.. after the concert, pumunta ako sa gig nung mga tropa ko sa may Tio Dante’s (Firm Session band), syempre loner-loneran.. pero andun naman sila rhea and friends.. :p kaya syempre, riot ito! hehe! wala lang, nagsasasayaw, nagiiinom, what you would usually do sa bar.. namiss ko kasi ang night life.. and syempre kahit paos-paos kakasigaw sa concert ni ja rule, pinakanta ako. guest singer ito! why not.. hahaha!!! i had my own concert.. social diba? anyway, sya, tapos na ang updates ko for this post.. abangan ang susunod na… peace out!

Life is so semi kinda unfair for me right about now.. wala lang.. haay.. not to divulge everything naman in this post diba? kaya lang alam mo yun? normal lang ba na ang dami mong cargo at an early, early age.. i know, i know.. God wouldn’t give me any of this if He knew i couldn’t take it, or if He knew that i wouldn’t be able handle it.. i know i can handle it, i know i’m strong.. its just that it’s so hard to be responsible for everything all at once then take ALL of the pressure that goes with those responsibilities and then be alone all the way.. i know my friends are there to support me, and i thank all of them for that.. they are one of the reasons that i’m still standing right now despite of all the hardships in my life.. but they are not the ones carrying the burden directly.. heck! this isn’t the worst scenario that you could encounter in general, kung compared with other people’s lives, maliit na bagay lang siguro ang problema ko.. i still count my blessings no! ang hirap lang talaga.. parang i have to crawl all the way para lang makalampas sa kung ano pa mang sitwasyon meron ako ngayon.. like nung this week, nasobrahan siguro, i collapsed all of a sudden.. i broke down crying.. something that has never happened to me before.. nagulat ako sa nangyari sa sarili ko.. pero masarap umiyak, parang after nun, hindi man nawala ang problema, magaan naman pakiramdam mo compared to how you first started out.. i almost never usually cry over things.. i don’t not because i don’t want to.. it’s just that i think that i shouldn’t.. maybe you’ll think that i’m stupid or something kaya lang kasi, there are a lot of people looking up to me for strength, and i don’t want them to see their pillar crumbling down.. gets? ang hirap no? well, guess that’s how life goes..